I think it’s a miracle that you’re still alive. I can relate to a certain extent.
It was during the last year of my education as a Systems Engineer, where I was hospitalized into a mental institution due to a failed suicide attempt. I was 19 at that time. There I got my first diagnosis: paranoid schizophrenia (ICD-10, F20.0). Due to my persistent depressive mood and suicidal ambivalence (as I understood) it was revised to schizoaffective disorder (ICD-10, F25.1). Several antidepressants, mood stabalizers and antipsychotics were tried like: Escitalopram, Duloxetine, Sertraline, Lithium, Quetiapine, Haloperidol, Clozapine and Olanzapine (as far as I can remember) and also electroconvulsive therapy (ECT).
By a coincidence, I was assessed for autism spectrum disorder, because my behavior couldn't still really be explained (myself was also unable). My parents also got interviewed. It has become apparent that my father is also on the spectrum. Autism spectrum disorder (Asperger syndrome ICD-10, F84.5) and with recurrent depressive disorder with psychotic symptoms (ICD-10, F33.3) were the diagnoses when I was transferred to a locked care facility after more than a year.
In the facility I had weekly therapy with my psychiatrist. He confirmed the autism diagnosis and additionally diagnosed a PTSD (ICD-10, F43.1), after I told him about situations in my early childhood and my time in high school. The psychiatrist told me that, people in the spectrum are often victim of abuse, because of a certain vulnerability malicious people (like NPD) make use of.
Today, 9 years later I am still living in the facility.
I'm sorry for your troubles and I hope you find some peace. But don't focus too much on ICD-10 codes. Those were designed for classification purposes and — especially for mental health conditions — don't necessarily align to any specific underlying cause or provide useful guidance toward effective treatment.
Yes, you are absolutely right. However I mentioned the exact diagnosis with the ICD-10 code intentionally. It helps me to describe how I feel. I wanted to make it as unambiguous as possible between the systems DSM-5 and ICD-10 (I only know ICD-10 and I am not an expert at all) so on an international board we can refer to the same.
> provide treatment
Yes, they can force you to stay in an isolation room for weeks or longer and inject medication. Sounds like a trauma, but it is sometimes necessary.
> effective treatment
Something like that is always desirable. However, reality can look different.
Hey BGPestablished, Yes, kind of a miracle I am alive, as with you. Mental Illness is the worst disease to have. I gave up on most medications, now take Klonopin just to keep me down when I need it. Through self education I came a long way but no one cares and no one believes me.
It does sound like we are similar, and frankly I wish I could be institutionalized as well. I have twice attempted suicide but managed to avoid ECT. I think scizoaffective is another name for complex Asperger's.
what country are you in? Just curious because I believe my illness comes from my mothers side, Finnish/Sami heritage.
I think it’s a miracle that you’re still alive. I can relate to a certain extent.
It was during the last year of my education as a Systems Engineer, where I was hospitalized into a mental institution due to a failed suicide attempt. I was 19 at that time. There I got my first diagnosis: paranoid schizophrenia (ICD-10, F20.0). Due to my persistent depressive mood and suicidal ambivalence (as I understood) it was revised to schizoaffective disorder (ICD-10, F25.1). Several antidepressants, mood stabalizers and antipsychotics were tried like: Escitalopram, Duloxetine, Sertraline, Lithium, Quetiapine, Haloperidol, Clozapine and Olanzapine (as far as I can remember) and also electroconvulsive therapy (ECT).
By a coincidence, I was assessed for autism spectrum disorder, because my behavior couldn't still really be explained (myself was also unable). My parents also got interviewed. It has become apparent that my father is also on the spectrum. Autism spectrum disorder (Asperger syndrome ICD-10, F84.5) and with recurrent depressive disorder with psychotic symptoms (ICD-10, F33.3) were the diagnoses when I was transferred to a locked care facility after more than a year.
In the facility I had weekly therapy with my psychiatrist. He confirmed the autism diagnosis and additionally diagnosed a PTSD (ICD-10, F43.1), after I told him about situations in my early childhood and my time in high school. The psychiatrist told me that, people in the spectrum are often victim of abuse, because of a certain vulnerability malicious people (like NPD) make use of.
Today, 9 years later I am still living in the facility.