I did not get the diagnosis, but I was very close. I hate talking and listening to people, but since it is important in workplace I do it and I view it as transactional because if I hate it and I would rather by nature not talk or listen why should I not try to use it as something as an attempt to benefit me.
Of course I have also been diagnosed with depression and social anxiety.
I think I excel in work interviews and first dates because I have time to plan for these scenarios, but I am terrible I'm group situations and day to day activities. Once I get the job I just work and try to avoid communication as much as possible.
If you find someone you can trust in the day-to-day environment, I have a hunch you could benefit greatly if you could confide this to someone. It could be "your friend you don't talk to" and both would know it's because you don't like talking much.
I don't recommend having only one such person if you have depression or anxiety. Things can go poorly should things ever go sour with a small number (~1) of trusted friends.
And of course a network of friends while helpful is not a 1-for-1 substitute for say, a therapist.
Let me ask you this: why do we run 100 yard dashes? (If you'll allow, I'm going to ask you up to four more whys, maybe we'll find out something interesting!)
