I second this.. The idea that there's an escape route is a relief, when you look at a big problem(that you have to solve) and your brain panics(it definitely puts the problem in perspective). However, i'm still divided as if having this is a good habit for self-growth or just an excuse to ignore the problem and work around it.

It might be healthier to not hold on to suicide as a last escape from failure, and just accept the possibility of life after failure. The thought process that you're illustrating here seems like part of what's driving family annihilators: the fathers who would rather kill you than fail you.