Yeah, that is phrased poorly and I don't quite know how to put what I'm trying to say. But still I believe we know on some level when we are lying to ourselves. The tricky part is to work out why, and what we are attempting to protect ourselves from when we do it.
I say all this because I deal with these issues to some extent too. But I don't give myself the out of "well I have depression". I'm responsible for my actions and I only have my one life. If something I do or refuse to do doesn't make sense and is making my life worse, I think about why and how I can stop it. I've gotten a lot of help and therapy over the years. It's not easy but the alternative is a lot worse.
I say all this because I deal with these issues to some extent too. But I don't give myself the out of "well I have depression". I'm responsible for my actions and I only have my one life. If something I do or refuse to do doesn't make sense and is making my life worse, I think about why and how I can stop it. I've gotten a lot of help and therapy over the years. It's not easy but the alternative is a lot worse.