mahathu isn't telling me something I didn't already know. When you are obsessed you figure all the angles. The only way I stopped was to take months long road trips to places that didn't sell nitrous, like the Alaskan wilderness. I did find spiritual recovery by reading Zen books on the road, so now I live in San Jose where there are smoke shops selling whippets on every corner and don't have a problem with it.

Nitrous was useful for helping me look at traumas I suffered in the military by muting my anxiety and strong emotions when I approached the subject. Another reason I don't have a problem with nitrous right now is that I worked through my traumas adequately.