Discovered that Im on the spectrum myself a few years back. Im sort of in the same boat "intelligence" wise, technical things come very easy to me and I am very analytical, but noticed that I have abnormal behavior in other areas.
However that being said, I want to kinda give you a framework for potential positive diagnosis. If you are on the spectrum, that is most likely not the cause of what you feel is missing in your life. The fact that you can function with a job and a family shows that despite you possibly being on the spectrum you have figured out how to get there, the difference is that it may have been a more complex and indirect path.
A running theory that I tend to believe is that autism is effectively the failure of certain regions of your brain to connect directly, however as amazing as our brain are, there is still a connection possible through roundabout means, which effectively trains the surrounding regions more than in other people, effectively giving higher intelligence or higher ability in some form and way. Cognitive therapy for autism is pretty much describing human behavior through roundabout ways because people on the spectrum can't relate in direct ways that other people can. A good number of people on the spectrum can just figure this out naturally by themselves.
Just being autistic does not mean that you experience a degradation of life, its just some things may be difficult for you to adapt to, just like it can be hard for someone non technical to learn computer science since they can't form the framework in their head.
So it may be that you have other issues present, which are causing you to behave in ways that could be indicative of autism.
This is the test that is supposedly the best for a general indicator. https://embrace-autism.com/reading-the-mind-in-the-eyes-test.... When I took it, I consistently scored 50% on it.
You also may have ADHD, as symptoms tend to overlap. https://www.spectrumnews.org/features/deep-dive/decoding-ove...
But definitely reach out to get tested.
However that being said, I want to kinda give you a framework for potential positive diagnosis. If you are on the spectrum, that is most likely not the cause of what you feel is missing in your life. The fact that you can function with a job and a family shows that despite you possibly being on the spectrum you have figured out how to get there, the difference is that it may have been a more complex and indirect path.
A running theory that I tend to believe is that autism is effectively the failure of certain regions of your brain to connect directly, however as amazing as our brain are, there is still a connection possible through roundabout means, which effectively trains the surrounding regions more than in other people, effectively giving higher intelligence or higher ability in some form and way. Cognitive therapy for autism is pretty much describing human behavior through roundabout ways because people on the spectrum can't relate in direct ways that other people can. A good number of people on the spectrum can just figure this out naturally by themselves.
Just being autistic does not mean that you experience a degradation of life, its just some things may be difficult for you to adapt to, just like it can be hard for someone non technical to learn computer science since they can't form the framework in their head.
So it may be that you have other issues present, which are causing you to behave in ways that could be indicative of autism.