I've noticed the same behavior in myself, but I think the explanation is simpler than needing to dive into existential philosophy; our tools suck, and we haven't found the right combination of features to make a nice simple software system that people can use for their daily lives.

I still think something like Emacs or Leo is the way forward, the UI/UX just needs to be massively improved.

https://leoeditor.com/preface.html