It sounds like that you are deeply unhappy about your work situation. Sorry.
I truly love what I am doing as I am making a difference in the work that I do, and I know of others in the same boat as I am.
One advice, get the F*CK out of there and actively find something that you like doing. I am guessing that you are in your mid-20s. This means that you still have plenty of "runway" in your life to explore other things to do. Explore before that "runway" shortens to 0.
I truly love what I am doing as I am making a difference in the work that I do, and I know of others in the same boat as I am.
One advice, get the F*CK out of there and actively find something that you like doing. I am guessing that you are in your mid-20s. This means that you still have plenty of "runway" in your life to explore other things to do. Explore before that "runway" shortens to 0.
Good luck!