I went through burn out. During that time I learned what it must feel like to be stupid. I would look at code that I had written and stare blankly at it, unable to comprehend any of it.
For a time I couldn't even be in the same room as my computer. Being close to it would make me physically ill.
I took a year off. I'm still catching up on news that happened in 2012.
Some thoughts from skimming your post:
- You said you would lie to people about still being in school. Don't do that. Don't lie unless there's an imminent threat to your safety or that of others. Lying only adds to your mental and emotional burden, which will also take a physical toll on you. In your case, it probably also makes it more difficult for others to help you (by putting distance between you and those close to you, and feeding them false information).
- Don't act alone. Think of others. You can't do a startup by yourself. I learned that the hard way. While I was able to pull it off for a few years, it was at large expense, and ultimately resulted in burn out.
- Get rest. If you're at the point where learning new things is difficult because of burn out, it means you need a lot of rest. It could take months, even a year. Take a break, and reflect on the lessons your burnout taught you.
For a time I couldn't even be in the same room as my computer. Being close to it would make me physically ill.
I took a year off. I'm still catching up on news that happened in 2012.
Some thoughts from skimming your post:
- You said you would lie to people about still being in school. Don't do that. Don't lie unless there's an imminent threat to your safety or that of others. Lying only adds to your mental and emotional burden, which will also take a physical toll on you. In your case, it probably also makes it more difficult for others to help you (by putting distance between you and those close to you, and feeding them false information).
- Don't act alone. Think of others. You can't do a startup by yourself. I learned that the hard way. While I was able to pull it off for a few years, it was at large expense, and ultimately resulted in burn out.
- Get rest. If you're at the point where learning new things is difficult because of burn out, it means you need a lot of rest. It could take months, even a year. Take a break, and reflect on the lessons your burnout taught you.