Just wondering about it is a small but positive first step.
The next step: seek out more knowledge. Do a bunch of reading about privilege, and racism, and sexism, and unconscious bias, and micro-aggressions, and lots of other things. There are many resources on the web for this that you can seek out, but if you want a place to start, http://geekfeminism.wikia.com/wiki/Feminism_101 is one I've found useful. (If starting with a resource that's seemingly just about feminism feels too narrow, don't worry; you'll soon learn about "intersectionality" -- there's stuff about it on that very page I've linked -- and the ideas get much broader.) Follow the links, read some more, follow the links, read some more.
You'll quickly see that, like all topics of interest, this one has some jargon that will sound strange at first. You'll get used to it soon enough and realize that it's useful; that these strange-sounding terms have specific meanings that encapsulate concepts helpfully.
Engage your mind critically with what you read, including articles like this, and the subsequent comment threads. Empathize; put yourself in the shoes of the author as best you can. Think about which responses are reasonable, and which are unreasonable.
Do this for long enough and you'll start to see patterns. You'll start to realize that certain behaviours which seem benign at first are actually problematic. You'll start to get a feeling for what might be causing the "unbelonging". I won't give you examples because (a) you can find plenty if you do some reading, and (b) it's often more effective to work them out yourself than by having them given to you.
Talking with members of minorities can also be extremely helpful, but it's probably better to do some reading first. You'll likely get more out of any such discussion once you have a decent foundation of understanding.
All this is doable, but it'll take some time and effort and thought. Good luck.
The next step: seek out more knowledge. Do a bunch of reading about privilege, and racism, and sexism, and unconscious bias, and micro-aggressions, and lots of other things. There are many resources on the web for this that you can seek out, but if you want a place to start, http://geekfeminism.wikia.com/wiki/Feminism_101 is one I've found useful. (If starting with a resource that's seemingly just about feminism feels too narrow, don't worry; you'll soon learn about "intersectionality" -- there's stuff about it on that very page I've linked -- and the ideas get much broader.) Follow the links, read some more, follow the links, read some more.
You'll quickly see that, like all topics of interest, this one has some jargon that will sound strange at first. You'll get used to it soon enough and realize that it's useful; that these strange-sounding terms have specific meanings that encapsulate concepts helpfully.
Engage your mind critically with what you read, including articles like this, and the subsequent comment threads. Empathize; put yourself in the shoes of the author as best you can. Think about which responses are reasonable, and which are unreasonable.
Do this for long enough and you'll start to see patterns. You'll start to realize that certain behaviours which seem benign at first are actually problematic. You'll start to get a feeling for what might be causing the "unbelonging". I won't give you examples because (a) you can find plenty if you do some reading, and (b) it's often more effective to work them out yourself than by having them given to you.
Talking with members of minorities can also be extremely helpful, but it's probably better to do some reading first. You'll likely get more out of any such discussion once you have a decent foundation of understanding.
All this is doable, but it'll take some time and effort and thought. Good luck.