You're not required to set yourself on fire to keep others warm.

There is such an incredibly huge gap between what is considered good software craftmanship and what is actually happening in practice in the industry. Nobody really talks that loudly about the ugly parts - it's embarrassing and just reflects badly on your employer (or worse - client). But judging from my own experience, and what my friends working at other places tell me, and how much articles like "Programming Sucks"[0] resonate with people, you are very likely to run into the same problem at your next job if you decide to quit.

It sounds like you're doing a good job, so instead of quitting, consider caring less about the company, the project and your own reputation. Let deadlines slip. Don't do patch releases. Go home at 5.

You might catch some extra flak at the start since you've been doing this stuff so far, but at worst you will be as ineffective as your coworkers. The company is probably better off with you working normally than quitting.

[0]http://www.stilldrinking.org/programming-sucks

> I have the joy of refactoring thousands of lines of code just so I can build the new features the 'right' way.

Maybe don't do that. Build what you CAN the 'right' way, accept some shitty code, and most importantly - don't try to kill all the shitty code on your own as a side objective.

Take a step back.

Look at what is required of you personally.

If you can make a case of rewriting the shitty parts, then do that. Presumably if the old bugs are catching up and wastes a lot of time for you and your team, and pisses of the customers, then it it won't be any problems to make the case for rewriting the worst parts. That means that other things have to be prioritized lower.

If you can't sell a refactorization, maybe because it's not worth it - as in no economical benefits, maybe you need to adjust your expectations. Shit happens, also in code. You are not paid to write code "the right way". You are paid to write whatever that brings in the money.

If you can't sell it although there is a clear economical benefit, then find another job.

Good luck.

Sounds pretty shitty. You've been there 5 months? I'd say that's probably long enough to see if this is just a temporary period of craziness or just the way things are. If things are unlikely to change just by waiting, I'd say you need to leave.

But first, I'd personally start making noise about the way things are. Maybe the bosses think everything is fine. If you're mentally done anyway, there's no barrier to speaking up. Start making the case that the way things are is unsustainable. If they don't listen or you can't push through any changes, start preparing a story you can tell your next employer and get out the door. No, this particular job is not worth your sanity.

You make a really good point. The boss does know how shitty it is for people and he mentioned he hopes things will change by Q1 of next year.

2 mental break downs in 5 months, I don't think I can make it to Q1 of next year. The Principal engineer who left shortly after I joined, said the same thing about 'hoping things would get better'. He was always waiting for it to get less shitty, but that never happened. It feels like a bait and switch, but with a twist of insanity haha

Get out of there.

Your mental health is far more important than some empty promise that "things will get better".

Hint: they're not going to get better, because the problems you have are orthogonal to how the business operates. As long as they can remain profitable, they'll wring every last drop of productivity they can from you and replace you as needed.

They might not state it as such, they might not even know they're doing it--but the fact that "things will get better" date is a fiscal year should hint where their priorities lie.

Get out--you don't owe them anything.

Exactly, I totally agree. Thanks for the advice!

Just to echo the others: get out.

But there's more to it than that.

De-brief yourself. What did you learn? One thing you may come up with: your health is more important than any job. Another suggestion: it seems that you may have taken on more than anyone expected you to take on, including yourself. You might want to ask your boss' opinion on this. They may be surprised at how much you've been doing. Perhaps not.

Take a break. Just phone in sick: you are sick. Being sick doesn't mean you have to stay in bed eating pills. Get outside, go for a walk, blow the cobwebs away, get some exercise perhaps, just step away from computers and the internet. For the first day don't even think about work. Then on day 2 try imagining what you'd say to someone else who's in your situation. Things might become clear.

Good luck!

"hopes things will change"

Get out. You don't "hope" things change, you make a plan, then you execute the plan, and you make corrections as needed. You don't hope. Nothing happens when you hope. Unless this quote is vastly out of context, I'd say there's no hope.

All the other suggestions here are pretty good.

here are some from my personal experience, they probably do not all apply:

(i) establish clear boundaries as to how much time/energy you are willing to put into your work. don't do unpaid work - this devalues your own time and devalues the time of your coworkers. don't silently absorb the consequences of bad decisions made by other parts of the company. push back! if you are overloaded with work, clearly explain this, and force clear prioritisation decisions. it is better if management rapidly feels the discomfort caused by their own poor decisions (similar to CI!).

(ii) if there are serious problems with existing code that need refactoring (there usually are), and it needs a substantial investment of time, make a business case for it and get someone with authority to make a clear business decision. people who are not getting their hands dirty with the code probably don't have a clear idea of the reality, so you need to find a way to explain that, and what the future consequences will be. it might be necessary to gather metrics and make some kind of argument focusing on which parts of the code attract the most bugs / are impossible to test / are frequently undergoing change, and how this impacts the business.

(iii) sometimes you may be in an environment where hastily writing lower-quality code is the best option. some organisations have found markets where perhaps this is necessary. e.g. more consulting-ish work where much work is client-specific and there is not enough money in it for a lot of development effort. if you take pride in higher standards of craftsmanship you might be far happier working somewhere else, where there are clear business reasons for doing things at a higher level of quality.

(iv) if management's response to your concerns boils down to "after [some duration] things will get better", they're probably just stalling, and they do not want things to change. if they want things to get better they need to actually start making changes for the better, perhaps small, immediately.

(v) seriously consider quitting. try to find a few people (outside of work) who you can talk through the decision with.

(vi) make sure you have positive things happening outside of work. exercise. eat properly. do fun things unrelated to your job. spend time with friends and family. if you do not have that much else going on aside from work, it is easy for work to expand to fill the void. this will not make you happy.

Here's what happens at my current job:

The boss assigns me 5 tasks. I ask him what is the priority (offering my guess). He tells me the priority, and I do them in that order, and he understands that the low-ranking stuff might not happen for a few days.

Here's what happens in a toxic environment:

My boss assigns me 5 tasks. I ask what is most important. He says they are all equally urgent.

The 2nd example shows an ignorance of how programmers work. You do one thing, finish it, then do the next thing. If you try to do 5 things at the same time, it'll take much longer than doing them in order.

What you have to do is make sure your boss tells you what is the most urgent stuff, and let the less urgent stuff slide.